Nationals is over

Now that Nationals is finally over for speech, I will be winding down my regular routine. I'm exhausted right now, and it's not just one thing; it's a whole bunch of things, ranging from school to chaotic relationships to just not being able to figure it all out. I'm really not happy where I am in my life right now, and honestly, I don't see it getting any better. The end of school doesn't show me a happy ever after that. Continuing school just keeps continuing the trends that really aren't working for me.

R. was going to be coming out tomorrow to my place so we can talk as things haven't really been working out for our relationship to grow. She's never been in my place before, and she wanted me to make sure that I was able to get her a temporary parking pass so she can park at my place. I told her that parking here is somewhat dysfunctional, and that was treated as a "I'm coming all the way from my city to yours, so the least you can do is take care of this" issue. So, I went to the place where they give temporary parking passes, and the woman told me (kind of in the same manner an adult talks to a seven year old) that R. can come to the parking place herself when she shows up, that they don't give temporary parking passes to just anyone because they ask, and then threw it back at me as if my attempt at making this little process work a bit smoother was the most inconvenient situation anyone could possibly bring up to a university administration official.

And I don't really know how I'm going to survive the summer. I don't have enough money to make it all the way through the summer, and my attempts at actually finding a job have been completely unsuccessful. Most of the time, the places I apply don't even respond. I'm not sure if they're rejecting me because their application system is dysfunctional, I have too much education, they think I'm stupid, they hired the boss's son in law instead, or because I filled out my resume in crayon.

Stumble It!