All dressed up but nowhere to go
I took the GRE over the weekend for the second time. The last time I took it was 7 years ago, before applying to universities for grad school. I did all right, but not the greatest in the world. I've never been a great person for standardized testing. But the score was better than I expected, considering the fact that I had taken a pre-test a few weeks ago, and it all but indicated I was a complete moron, barely getting the "spell your name correctly" question correct.
I'm kind of in a zero movement area of my life right now. I don't really know what to do. I miss California more and more every day, but I'm scared to death of moving back there because I can't guarantee I'll have a job after arriving. I really have this fear of future poverty. I mean, I grew up in that environment; I don't think I can handle going back to it.
But I find myself with nothing to do each and every day after work. I have no social life and wouldn't know where to find one if I was inclined to search for one. I finished my latest novel and am burned out on writing for a short while. I find myself antsy all the time, not sure of what to do. I feel like I should be out there doing something, but I can't figure out what that thing is.
Stumble It!
I'm kind of in a zero movement area of my life right now. I don't really know what to do. I miss California more and more every day, but I'm scared to death of moving back there because I can't guarantee I'll have a job after arriving. I really have this fear of future poverty. I mean, I grew up in that environment; I don't think I can handle going back to it.
But I find myself with nothing to do each and every day after work. I have no social life and wouldn't know where to find one if I was inclined to search for one. I finished my latest novel and am burned out on writing for a short while. I find myself antsy all the time, not sure of what to do. I feel like I should be out there doing something, but I can't figure out what that thing is.
Stumble It!
posted by Duane @ 11:54 AM
1 Comments:
At 5:58 AM,
Milani said…
Hi Duane,
If California is beckoning you, it must have something in store for you there. Cali is a sunny place, and the social life is more happening in a bigger city than anywhere in Michigan. I enjoyed LA and SF when I was there, especially SF.
How can u be afraid of being in poverty again? There are many people who end up finding a job, working hard at it, and having a great life over there! I think being "poor" is more a state of mind. Of the number of people who don't find a job, can't be happy, end up broke in Calif, there are more people who do find a job, thrive on the talents they have and create a path for themselves.
So, focus and think up of ways of how you can be among the group of people who can make his life work in CA. You can moan on and on about your life; the same methods will lead you to the same results. Unless you like being in that 'helpless' comfort zone. You write, you create magic in your writing. Why don't u create some magic for your real life? I dare you.
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